Lately I have been feeling convicted with living above the standard.
I am so tired of all the sexual jokes, videos, etc. that are supposed to be funny. I'm tired of the raunchy stuff. I'm tired of just plain old gross things. I'm tired of living like everyone else. I feel like there is nothing to set me apart from a non christian.
The more "bad" stuff we let in by watching and/or listening to, the more desensitized we become. I don't want to make excuses for this stuff either. Sure we can blame it on the media and society but it's not their fault we CHOSE to participate in it. They provide but ultimately we decide how to handle it.
I feel like everyone should feel the way I do. But the harsh reality is, few do. Maybe because I'm feeling these convictions I feel like it should affect others just as strongly. I think I'm expecting too much. God isn't changing my heart and everyone around me if they aren't willing to listen. He is working on me and me alone. I need to remember I can't account for everyone, our relationship isn't shared.
There is an old Sunday school song we used to sing with these lyrics:
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
I will not let this feeling fade. I am determined to let God continue changing my heart and living above the standard. I am not "holier than thou" but my hope is that others can notice something different about me and the standards I hold for myself.
