I enjoyed the worship at church today. There is something about the simple acoustic set where all I hear is Royce singing. For some reason, the more simple the set up, the less distracted I am. When it's just Royce and his guitar I am so drawn to him and to God. Some of the best worship experiences I've had are when it's just the guitar and him. In the simple sets, I can focus on the lyrics and have been able to really let those sink in and come from my heart. It's been awhile since that has happened and today was just a slight glimpse of that again.
So while I was sitting there enjoying the sweet sound of my love's voice and reflecting on how amazing God really is, I was thinking about other things too (it's amazing how well women can multitask). One of the thoughts to cross my mind--and really just so briefly--was marriage. Seriously, the idea flashed for like a second and then I began to entertain it. And I felt like God was telling me your time will come. And then I was thinking about how long I have been dating Royce and how we have no idea what the future holds for us. We have some amazing ideas but those are simply our wishes, we have no clue what the timing is. And then I thought how God is totally orchestrating this. I really believe that as the time goes on I am becoming more ready and more prepared for marriage. And maybe with my history this is what is needed in order to build a solid marriage. We have rough spots but we are no where near what we used to be. And only by the grace of God have we been able to pull through all of this. When I think about how amazing it is that Royce is not perfect yet so perfect for me, I am in awe. And even though I feel like everyone is getting married before me (and most haven't even dated as long as we have!) I know that God has the perfect plan in store for us.
And while all this is going on in my mind, the song "Open the Eyes of My Heart" is being sung and coincidentally it's during the holy, holy, holy part and I feel that God has control my life and my future and for that He is holy.
And these lyrics become real to me.
